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Friday, August 1, 2014

Happy Friday... Can you believe it's already August?  Where is my summer going.

Speaking of summer. Man was it hot in Sacramento.  After work and blogging, I got in my car and headed to Kaia Gym.  Once there, I popped open my trunk.  This picture kinda makes me smile.

Just look at the crap I have in my trunk:

Bike Lock
Gym bag (with toiletries and work clothes)
Resistant bands
yoga matt
kaia bag for swings

You should see what I have in the front seat.  Mesh bag with:

swim cap
bike shorts

Crazy, right?

On bike night, I am always a little frustrated starting out.  Getting my bike out of the car is a pain.  Once out, I need to put my wheel back on and connect my front brake. I have yet to manage this without stress.

Once out on the road, we practiced hills on the American Bike trail. It was HOT out there. At least 100 degrees.  It was hard to concentrate on the hills because once I got up, I was so light headed. I got so light headed three times that I had to stay back from the others. There are times I am so happy that my body allows me to do so much, and then there are times that it JUST BONKS OUT on me.


After an hour, I was ready to call it a night.

On our way back to the gym, we stropped to check on a group standing on the side of the trail. There was another woman sitting down with her head in her lap. Apparently, I'm not the only one bonking out. Biking is so different from other sports. You really need to fuel and hydrate property. I'm pretty sure I bonked out because I hadn't eaten since lunch. I definitely  need to make me some protein/carby type snack to eat before heading out and while on the road.

Coach said fueling is a big part of biking.  I have so much to learn in these 10 weeks.  Slow and steady, right?  Keep showing up Paula... it's not about the destination. It's all about the journey.  Keep pedaling.

Sometimes you just gotta talk yourself down from the tree.

Have an awesome weekend.  Do you have any fun plans?

Thursday, July 31, 2014

showing up

Happy Thursday all.  I hope you are staying cool?  Cuz it's warm here in Sacramento. 

It's my third week of TRI training. I cannot believe I kinda swam a lap and made it to 12 feet. It was scary but I learned something at my half-way point... For a second, I was going to panic. I kept calm and knew that if I just kept my head down, kicked and moved my arms, I would make it. I MADE IT.  It wasn't pretty. But my team (pictured below) kept chanting YOU KAN DO IT.  It was pretty empowering. Love the woman at Kaia Fit.

You have no idea how I feel in the water. My heart is racing like crazy. I feel it in my chest but I know I have to push through it. If it wasn't for this one coach, I probably be holding onto the side of the pool.

I am not sure if I will be anywhere ready to compete come September 21st.  I didn't join the team to compete. I was doing it for the challenge.  I figured by SHOWING UP I might learn something and maybe by some great miracle, I'd learn to swim. 

After Monday's workout, I some how have allowed myself to entertain the idea of actually swimming a 1/2 mile. I've biked 11 miles before and even ran a 5k but I've never done 3 events back to back.  I wake up in the mornings and head to the gym and the thought "paula you are insane... act yoru age woman!" but I push it aside and decide to SHOW UP.  The fact that I'm showing up is awesome enough...  or so I thought. 

Here's the thing. I haven't wanted something so much in a long time. I am working hard.  I want to learn how to swim.  I fight the feeling of being mediocre every time I show up.  But I decide to be present.  I decide to work harder. I have a private swimming lesson tomorrow. I'm committed to using my lunch hour to practice. Who knows, just maybe... just maybe I'm a contender?

The world is full of surprises.

Later gators, I'm off to bike ride... Next up... HILLS.

Stay good.


Friday, July 25, 2014

Hola, how was your week? I hope it's been filled with a little adventure. I've been moving office locations.  I work in 2 departments and cover for a 3rd.  The upside to this move is I am back in a small house and I have inherited a wonderful executive desk and a window.  I snapped this picture today and I noticed two things... First, I love that my skin is so brown.  That's from all my outdoor activities. The 2nd is the FAT ROLL ON MY ARM.

See it?  We're never satisfied, are we?  Nope.  Just gonna try and focus on how wonderful I feel.

My workouts are going well.  I've had 3 free-style swim lessons since my last post and  I am making progress. I no longer need the boogie board. I can swim to the 4.5 feet side of the pool.  I'm still scared to go further. I'm pretty sure it's because of my breathing. I need to practice moving my head to the side to come up for air. Every time I do it, my feet sink and then I freak out... SWIMIN IS HARD.

Bike training is going pretty good. I feel more confident on the bike. Not sure why. I learned how to use the gears on my bike.  I practiced going up and down some hills.  Not gonna lie. I was scared. I was careful not to "brake" too much because I don't want to flip over. The speed scares me but I LOVE IT TOO.

I've been doing my regular cross-training workouts, except I missed last night's workout. I arrived there but was late. Tried to bike but then I got so frustrated with putting on my front wheel. Instead, I went straight to the bike shop to have the bike tuned up. Really, like that's going to help me with  my frustration.  I just wanted to make the best use of my evening.  I hate wasting time, don't you?

I'm off early today so I'm going to practice in the pool at work. Again, trying to make good use of my time.  Tomorrow, I swim in open water.

Pray for me okay?  I'm outie. I hope your weekend is awesome.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

I kan Tri

Hello, long time no blog... Life  has been really wonderful and busy.  I spent 4th of July with this little one... My daughter woke me up at 4:30 a.m. to work out prior to walking all day at Disneyland. Who does that? Oh, I guess we do.

4th of July--me and Jellybeans

I hope you had a wonderful July.  Did you do anything fun?

I've been knee deep in my Kaia workouts.  Then I caught a cold and was off for 1 week. Don't you just hate missing your workouts when you're sick? Gotta listen to your body and well, I'm back in full effect.  Full effect means something really crazy.  In addition to cross-training, I signed up for a 10 week Triathalon training program. I'm on a team.  Crazy since I don't know how to swim.

Today, was my 2nd day in the water and I floated. I think this is huge since I never thought I would float. I am still using the paddle board but at least now, I know I can float and so maybe this will ease my fear.

I'm not having any huge expectations for the Triathalon. I haven't even registered.  The goal is to do the training. Use the pool time to learn how to swim and then by some great miracle I can swim, I'll sign up but if I don't know how to swim safely enough, I'll sign up for a dualathon in September.  Good enough, right?

I am still so much on the fence about this training.  Can I share a secret with you?  Before C, I was jogging 2-3 miles, doing zumba 5-6 days a week. I was at the top of my game... And then I got sidelined with C.  I hate that there is a BEFORE C and an AFTER C mentality but there it is... always sticking it's tongue at me.  I've made lots of progress in learning how to stay out of fear...  But it holds me back until I'm able to kick it in the butt.  It feels like I'm living on borrowed time and I gotta do all these things before the clock runs out.  It's stupid. I know...

I'm hoping to post some of my workouts. I think this is a major happening in my life and I want to document it... if only for me and to keep a record of how I'm feeling and how I'm progressing.

Anyways, just wanted to share my crazy news. Wish me luck okay?


Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Relay for Life

Dear friends,

On Saturday, June 21st, my family and friends will join me in West Sacramento’s Relay for Life where we will walk for 24 hours to raise money for the American Cancer Society.  This has been a tough year. My extended family saw two deaths this year due to Cancer.  I was lucky. I survived breast cancer and am enjoying remission. I don’t take a minute for granted.  This is my second year doing Relay for Life and it’s become an important cause for myself and my family. I imagine many of us have been affected by Cancer in one way or another. I recently attended a Survivor’s dinner where I met a woman whose been in remission for 40 years.  I got excited to hear those words. But my heart dropped when she said she was battling her 8th diagnosis.  Imagine being diagnosed 8 times with Cancer.  But thanks to research she is still here, fighting.  If you have a moment, please support the American Cancer Society. Every dollar raised hopefully gets us a little closer to finding a cure and more birthdays.

If you wish to make a donation to Team Ladybugs, you can go here:

Or perhaps you would like to join us?  If you're local, please come on out. There will be lots of vendors selling food, and other fun trinkets. I’ll be selling homemade Posole, pan dulce and Mexican chocolate. Hope to see you there.

Relay For Life of West Sacramento
Saturday, June 21, 2014

Our Lady of Grace School

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Holding Onto These Moments

Hi friend, how's it going?

It's been a busy month. Lots of stuff happening at work. You know I've been at my job for 24 years. There's lots of downsizing and even though it's scary to even think about starting a new job, I decided to have my resume professionally done. I was hoping to meet with the person and "talk" about my experience but alas everything is done "on-line." I knew this... but I guess I'm just old fashioned.  I probably could have written it myself but wanted a fresh perspective.  I'm a procrastinator and so having this done is a  huge step in taking care of my future.

I've been doing my workouts steadily.  I love that I'm using weights and pushing myself.  Am I losing weight? Not like I want but I've lost 13 pounds since my last chemo which was in February 2013.  I'll take it.

I ran a 5k with my daughter.  Man, I accidentally recorded 10 minutes of my run and all I could hear was my heavy breathing.

Here I am a hot mess.  We ran on the levy which was pretty cool. Notice my hair is growing like a weed? Yea, it's a challenge each morning to calm the curls.  I found myself literally in tears out of frustration but then I realize how silly that was. After all, my grandson was graduating middle school and I have a new granddaughter. I'm extremely lucky.

I imagine the tears came from fear.  When you're so happy that it scares you. I just want to hold onto these moments. 

 Tonight I do a fitness test. I so hope I can run a mile faster than 12 minutes.  

Later gators. Hope you're having an awesome day. Gotta run. My little grands are all finishing up school and I'm planning a little grad party. We're going to swim in the back yard, then we'll watch FROZEN in the backyard on the projector and then have banana splits.

Yea, it's going to be epic.  I can just hear my granddaughters.... LET IT GO, LET IT GO. That move is carved in my brain. Guess I'm not alone, right?

Monday, May 5, 2014


Happy Cinco de Mayo... May 5th is not really something we celebrate in my family... September 16th is when we really celebrate Mexican independence day.  For me, Cinco de Mayo is an occasion to eat Chips and lots of Guacamole...

 Our dinner included grilled shrimp along with these veggies.  For an added treat, we ate stuff poblano peppers with cheese... Super bueno.  Even though Mexican food can be loaded with calories, there are occasions where you can HEALTHIFY it..
Speaking of HEALTHIFYING.... Today I start another 6 week series at Kaia Fit.  Kaia is similar to Cross-Fit in that we do timed drills, lots of strength and cardio using kettle bells and BIG ASS tires. And every now and then we do a TRX session.  What is TRX? Well according to Google it's a form of resistance training that includes bodyweight exercises in which a variety of compound exercise movements can be performed. These are done with the aim of developing strength, balance, flexibility, and joint stability simultaneously.


Well, that's the WWW's definition. Here is mine. Don't laugh.

At the end of class, I asked one of the woman to take my picture doing this move. It's hard. You really engage your core and well.. it's just hard.

I felt intimidated by most of the exercises but I made sure I did each one.  I thought, I'm too heavy. I'm too ... you get the point. I had lots of excuses. But felt wonderful for giving it a try.  I can't believe I am doing some of these workouts.  I am so appreciative of what my body has allowed.

I continue to struggle with body image. At first glance, all I see are the many rolls on my body... Normally, that would side-line me B U T  N O T  A N Y M O R E!!

Feeling "uncomfortable" when it comes to my workouts is so much more rewarding. I used to do Zumba all the time and thought that was a serious workout. And it is... but doing functional intense training at my age is so gratifying. It's just me and the exercise. Am I going to push it or do what's comfortable? 

PUSH IT of course.  I wish the scale was going down.... sadly it has not but I did measure myself this past Saturday and guess what? I'm down 2 inches around my waist, hip, chest and butt...

It's nice when your hard work is rewarded...  My advise to you if you're struggling?  Keep pushing. Keep doing that which makes you feel uncomfortable. What's the worse that can happen?

Later gators.