Hi friends. I spent yesterday in bed. Totally zapped of energy. I NEVER lay in bed to watch TV. I even found myself eating ice cream out of the carton. Was I depressed? I don't think so. Was I sick? My asthma is bothering me but not enough to lay in bed, ALL DAY.
Maybe I was exhausted. Maybe it was having two slices of apple pie with vanilla ice cream with the family on Sunday. Could my body be crashing from sugar?
Either way, I listened to my body and layed around. I had nothing in me so I figure I needed to recharge.
Damn, a whole day wasted... but there was nothing I wanted to do about that. That was yesterday, Today, I went to work. My goal is to continue eating at the allotted times.
Breakfast was yogurt parfait with fresh fruit. I could not eat an hour after walking up. But at least I stuck to the parfait.
Lunch was half a corned beef sandwhich with salad. I joined a co-worker at an interesting pub near my office. I could have ordered an omlette but the menu was too extensive. Instead, went with the 1/2 sandwhich/soup combo.
My next meal is scheduled for 5:30 but I need to hit up a zumba class. I need to force my body to move. I know I'll feel better afterwards. Instead, I ate more berries and 1/2 c. of greek yogurt.
If I get hungry after zumba, I have fresh cilantro, diced cabbage that I can top with cuban black beans and onions.
I can't explain yesterday. The only thing I can think of is SUGAR HANG-OVER.
You might think "Paula, why did you eat pie and ice cream after working so hard during the 5 day fast forward?"
The answer: My family and I planned the Apple Hill trip and I knew I would purchase a pie for the family. I thought about post-poning the 5 day fast forward until after the Apple Hill trip. But thought why post-pone the inevitable. I secretly prayed for will-power but fully knew that was wishful thinking. I had hoped to merely taste the apple pie but like all addicts, I used. My drug of choice was PIE.
I will always struggle with sweets... I am hoping I will remember how DRAINED I felt yesterday and hopefully, that "feeling" will help me reconsider the next time I undo my progress and am faced with something as tempting as fresh baked apple pie.
What else can I say in my defense other than admit my momentary defeat. Addicts remove people and drugs from their lives but sugar addicts, well, it's a little more challenging, or is it?